Weird

Few days ago I was down with mild cold; I did not bother much about it and came to office the next day. As the day progressed, the cold moved from mild stage to worst stage and my body temperature rose. We usually have a doctor in office, so I paid him a visit (it has been really long since I last visited a doctor). Initially, he checked regular stuff but later asked some very strange things. He asked me to close my eyes (I just wondered what’s he doing!), kept a finger on my right eye, applied some pressure on it and asked if it was paining? I said no. Then he put a finger on my lower backbone and asked does it pain in this area; I said no. He asked me a couple of more questions and told that these were the symptoms of Dengue fever and I didn’t have it. He gave me some medicines and I came back to my desk.

I took the medicines and got back to work. I felt some strain in my eyes. I just relaxed and put my fingers on my eyes. It pained! After sometime I felt I had lower back pain! Believe me till I went home I felt like I had all the symptoms of Dengue fever which the doctor had told me about. I am not sure if I really had these problems or was it just psychological, but one thing is eating me inside ‘Do I have Dengue fever?’ I was just worried because I had an important week ahead and just cannot avoid it.

Finally it got cleared after a day and a half. My fever vanished though I am still left with bad cold. One thing is sure, during important events mind does play mischief with us and it has its own fun.

Paradox

I happened to came across a friend after a very long time and we just started talking and recollected the good old days and the fun we had. As we moved on, I was thinking about the days our group spent together for our goals, working hard, having fun, I just miss those days. Some made it from the group and I just felt strange that what we want we do not get; what we get we cannot possess; what we possess we cannot enjoy; what we enjoy does not last long and even when we think it last long, it proves to be boring. Maybe you all are wondering that I just started a Vedantic view of life…believe me friends I am not that frustrated with life nor do I have that pretty bad experience that I start talking about Vedanta.

Being crazy I just thought will spend time in understanding this paradox, ok I wont bore you all with what all I did but the conclusion I came to was that it's the thought flow that rise in mind which leads to this paradox. The chains of thoughts that rise one after the other make one feel happy (ok I just don't want to put all the emotions one can feel here). The thought flows that rise in once mind is the reason for once emotions, so if one can control that flow… do I need to say it? Ok some might be thinking that if I know about it, why I did not control the thought flow? (Form where I have started my writing and where I ended) as said before I am crazy. That's an easy way to say it, let me think about it…

After thinking for a long time I understood that I have no answer for that, all I can came across is that, I will take help of my friend who happened to be therapist, will update your all if he was of any help.